lkmkn asked:

Humanity *****.

At first I thought knowledge was the cure. In a sense, it was, but in other ways it was a poison: Like a kid that learns his dog actually didn’t get sent to the farm for a holiday, I resent knowing why but not knowing how to do anything differently.

Sure, I could manipulate people, but I already do it anyways; I create metaphors for the issues people have confounding variables for which would distort their view of it in that charming, ever-human style.
A rare few insights slip through the net, but they’re often scant and always partial. Like consolatory pats on the back before eternal damnation.

Everyone wants to be right, everyone wants knowledge, but nobody can deal with the price you pay for it — myself included. I hope we all get what we desire, so we can rot alongside one another in blissful nihilism. Many times it isn’t even a true metaphor, my patterns are just so far removed yet similar in essence, I end up with connections most people don’t see unless explained or coaxed.

And then humanity kicks in, and despite all points leading to one conclusion, someone otherwise logical will say “no.”
“No, that isn’t how I want it to be.”
And I ask what evidence they have to suggest otherwise.
And they say,
“No, you’re wrong. I will spin in circles until I can sufficiently confuse myself into a sense on security. I will argue in cliche patterns and blatant, emotive fallacies, simply because they are marred with your red hands.”

Now I think, FINE.
Do what you like. I’m tired. I’m going to think about myself for 5 hours.
But then they’re gone, and I can’t rot by myself, because I need to wait for elder others to come before, as is tradition. Tradition is a connection so far removed it wears a guise of sentimentality and pomp while bloating in indulgence underneath.

And now I wonder, how do I become happy? I would be happy if everyone else were dead, or I was dead and nobody cared. But both of those are unavailable.

Heres hoping there is hope left; heres hoping I’m stupid and wrong, and there is no method to my madness.

JR asked:

I recently read a short article on children born in December. Here are a few factors (I’ve added some of my own) that may contribute to this theory:

- Younger than most of their peers which can result in multiple problems.
- Younger, therefore their performance in school is not usually up to par.
- The entire month is overshadowed by a massive holiday(s).
- Many Sagittarius (Capricorn is also in the month of December) become sharped tongued comedians and or work in the entertainment industry. Perhaps this fits the astrological criteria that Sage loves attention.
- Born in a miserable time of the year which grooms the child into a cynic.
- The most deaths occur during the month of December, hence the term ‘the dark days of December’.
- Hey, and a lot of December (especially early December children) won’t tell you this, but about 99% of the money you give us in our birthday cards, goes directly to buying gifts- sometimes for the same relatives.

So the main question is, does this theory have any merit? Have you personally seen these patterns with your December relatives, or even with yourself?

asked:

going to add a fair amount of info, want to get a accurate answer, so i’ve warned you.

Last year I was doing year 12(final year of high school). i was highly motivated and worked really hard. because of this, i was used to getting a grades A, and everyone put pressure on me to do just aswell. however, i wsa not prepared for year 12, and i struggled; i was getting b- to a+. however, this required a lot of work to sustain this grade, and they started to graudally drop as the year progressed.

i was becoming very stressed, and could not cope with the pressure. i have always done well in psychology, getting a little above 90% at that point in time. because of this, i decided to not study for the psych exam, as i knew it all pretty much and i had a lot of studying needing to do for the other exams. by that time i wasn’t doing as much homework, only about 2-3 hours week days. when the pysch exam approached, i had a spare thirt minutes, so i decided to revise on it. i wsa trying to cover as muh as i could in a short period of time, which consequently raised my arousal levels. when i got into the exam, i was really edgy, when it started, my heart was beating really fast. my body constantly trembled. after that day, i developed depression.

as the year went on, i found it difficult to concentrate; things would not come to me as quickly as it use to. i was no way near asfocused as i once was. things got really bad. i wasn’t sleeping properly, found it hard to learn things, could not concentrate, and my body felt numb, and everything was an effort, as in it was much harder to get out of a chair, walk around, breath, everything really. but the numbness and everything being harder, physical things by the way, only happened some days, probably twice a week or so. i have been having headaches as well, which have been getting worse

so, my question is, do you have any idea what could be wrong with me?

here are all the reasons of what i think it could be:

depression: not sure if it would be this severe though…

i’ve been listing to loud music lately, and realised i have become a fair bit deaf because of it, ears are always a bit sore.

not getting much excercise,and have gained a bit of weight. perhaps less blodd flow? although surely it can’t have that much of an efect

have a poorer diet now, although GP gave me a blood test and she said that nothing was wrong. by the way, she doesn’t really know what’s wrong, but i did not tell her how serious this is either.

i;ve been using the computer for about10 hours a day on average. i used to do this when i was younger, and never once had sore eyes; however, i did not wear glasses back then, so there wasn’t as much glare, and the computer i have know is brighter. i think my prescription is out a bit too.

not sleeping well. i think this is to do with the depression though, as i have read it effects sleeping patterns.

in the last school holidays, i smocked marijuana for the first and last time. after that, i remember feeling a bit like this, although no way near as bad. at the begining of last year i remember thinking that it might of effected my cognitive ability, since i found it harder to process all the math information. i was doing things in year 11 which i found reasonably easy back then, yet at in the first term i found them difficult. at the time i thought it was probably i was not getting much teacher support, and the holiday break had got me out of the habit of math problem solving. now i am starting to think other wise, perhaps it triggered some response it me? i have heard it can do that with schriophena and depression…

any help would be greatly appreciated. i really don’t know what to do, and desperatly want answers. i am going to see a psychologist within the month, but he might not totally know either, and i would like others opinions. thanks in advance
yeah, bit of a computer geek. friends are annoying so don’t talk to them often. i watch movies, read books and other stuff on internet, play games and all other stuff on com. it’s probably more 8 now i think about it though…..
my diet is bad though, i don’t think that would be the main reason. perhaps contributing at the most. and does derpression really have that much of an effect? i know others who are depressed who do not have the same symptons….

by the way, when i wasn’t depressed i used to do solitary things, i’m introverted you see. i use to read and play card and video games. computer does all those things, convience you see
i guess i can think straight, i’m not confused or anything. i’ve heard that expression before so i tried to describe it that way. it is sort of like my brain is …. i guess like it has a lot of fog up there, and it is much harder to do things since the “fog” is blocking everything. hope that makes sense…..

Super-Awesome-Person asked:

well im an adhd kid and a night owl i dont really require sleep tho i **** mornings, if i only had 5hrs sleep i could carry on as normal and still stay up late the next night.

for years it has taken me at least an hour to fall asleep, usally have alot on my mind at night and can never switch off cz im always daydreaming and thiking about things that i done in the day that im annoyed about. lol it can take me between 1-4hours to fall asleep.

ok well for the past couple of months sleep trouble has been worse. my phobia of spiders is takin over my life and its annoying the anxiety stops me from being able to relax and fall asleep, i started staying up until about 2am and getting up late, my body clock is out of whack. i have been wakng up at 6am 8am or even 2pm a very different time evertyday sometimes waking at night. i woke up at 8am one day and didnt sleep til 4. last night i woke up at 8:30 and couldnt sleep until 6am the next day, and kept waking up every couple of hours until i woke up fully at 3pm. its really annoying.

is there anyway i can get back into a regualr sleep pattern and start relaxing at night?? my mum suggested having a sleeping pill for tonight cz i have to be up at 6am to get to the airport for holiday but i dno…

its driving me nuts!

im nearly 16

gahhh im so paranoid!!! i mean really paranoid i even have thought bout the creepy hallway guy ready to sneak up and stab me then theres the guy who hides outside your window when u open the curtains. then i think spiders are evrywhere. i just have obsessive thought really. sometimes when i go out i think my house is on fire and stuff. sometimes ill casually sit in my house and think about a tornado ripping through my house eventhough we dont get any where we live. lol cz i live in england. and if im in a car i have a tendency to imagine us crashing.

is these thoughs and paranoia like obessions kinda thing whats stopping me sleeping?

so is it just sleep trouble or is there something more to it thn that/ i need lots of answers please because i have to try n go to bed soon.
sorry its so long and i know ive posted it before but i left out the last lot of information to do with the thoughts and stuff which is kinda important.

sorry :S

Sarah asked:

Okay, so I’ve always been pretty happy with my life, always the bubbly girl who gets excited about the little things. Since the ages of about 11 or 12, I’ve had bowel problems relating to nerves triggered by absolutely nothing. Sometimes after meals, mostly at restaurants, sometimes randomly at home, at a friends house or on holiday. I have phases where it’s worse than others, but there’s no regular pattern, I’ve wrote down what I eat and nothing stands out. Since around December last year, I’ve been in love with a guy who was a good mate and he had a girlfriend. She didn’t treat him well and he ended up cheating on her with me (not a good thing, I know, but she kind of had him trapped, whenever he show signs of ending it she’d do something really nice, say she loved him or self harm) – sometimes she sounded a little bipolar. Anyway, I think I was his escape. When we were together we acted kind of like a couple, but he still went back to her. When I saw them together I’d get a horrible jealous feeling in my stomach because I loved him and I had nights where I would just breakdown and wonder why he wouldn’t leave her. I regularly woke up not wanting to get out of bed, I felt depressed and lonely, second best, I started to **** life and not care about college. In March/April time he broke up with her and then had to go back because she’d self-harmed. A few weeks later he broke up with her for me again because she’d gone back to being weird with him. We rushed into things too soon and spent a week together, it all seemed so perfect and I finally felt happy for the first time this year. We visited places, he bought me flowers, he told me he loved me. Then all of a sudden, after that week he didn’t talk to me much, and he then told me it felt weird and he wanted us to be mates. I broke down again and Mum had to console me, he hung up on me because he was too tired to explain but phoned back 15 minutes or so later and said he’d come around to explain in person. It was very awkward, he went to hug me but I didn’t want to because I knew it would be hard. He explained he’d rushed into it, he didn’t feel right but he thought he wanted to be with me, he kept picturing his ex. When he went to leave, I hugged him and didn’t want him to go. For a few days I was so low, I felt extremely low. I’ve rarely had a best friend, never had a proper boyfriend and I’ve always had to rely on myself because not many people bother to contact me unless I contact them. I was extremely lonely. I was getting better, he dropped around some money, asked me how I am, gave me a hug and then left and I realised how much I missed him and broke down again. I then was drunk one night and text him telling him I hoped he realised one day how much he’d hurt me, but I regretted it the next day. A few weeks later I was getting better, I stopped thinking about him as much, although I got that sinking feeling now and again. I finally felt free. Then my friend text me saying she’d seen him and his ex, obviously together. It brought back all the bad feelings, I felt so used and betrayed, and even angry. I don’t **** him, he was never maliciously horrible, he’s not a bad person, he’s so kind, but I don’t think he knew what he was doing, he was very confused and he’s not physically well either. He missed her and now they’re back together.

It’s all my fault for letting myself be the ‘bit on the side’ but I’ve never loved anyone this much, not even properly liked. Since I found out they’re back together I’ve gone back to having the sinking feeling in my throat, not wanting to get up, feeling lonely and second best, secluded, depressed, I feel sick and have bowel problems again, and I’m constantly up and down.

Every time I think I’m getting over him, something happens to knock me down again. My family had an argument the other day and I thought they were going to break up for certain reasons, and I feel that my family are all that I have. I don’t have a best friend to go to, he was the only person I felt myself around, he was my best friend.
When I found out, I text him angrily, I shouldn’t have but I did. Since then I’ve said I want to be friends, but he should understand how much he’s hurt me.

It’s just such a fucked up year, and I want to get rid of all these feelings. Someone said it sounds like anxiety, alongside heartbreak and rejection.
I’m aware that he’s not good for me, and I have accepted that I have to let go and he has chosen her over me. It’s just the getting over part I’m struggling with.

stanemac12 asked:

To start off, let me say that my memory is nothing particularly impressive. I can study material before an exam but I probably won’t remember everything. While I was completely bored, and I don’t know how I thought to do this, I started recalling memories of what my grandparents house looked like. This was a house they had lived in until I was probably about 10 years old, and we only ever visited them about two times a year during important holidays. The weird thing is though, I was somehow able to recall absolutely PERFECTLY every single detail about not only the layout of the house, but everything in it. I literally could close my eyes and imagine walking through it like it was completely real, everything from the carpets, rugs and their colors to the wallpaper patterns, even as far as single pieces of furniture in each room. It actually scared me when I looked at this afterwords. I don’t know why I was able to so perfectly recall this place that I had been to very rarely in my childhood.

I also did the exact same thing with my elementary school and the church that I used to go to when I was younger. Although to be honest, not in nearly as great of detail, but still shockingly realistically. So what is this? Some kind of photographic memory I had as a child and now lost? But I still remember those things from when I was young? Why can I remember this so clearly?

Lil Mizz Chel13 asked:

It’s very strange, but this is a weird way of putting it…

Lets say my memory is two boxes. My front box is what i am thinking about directly. The back is what’s wandering around the back of my mind, not concentrating on it. I remember things best if both have the same thing, but i’m a little distracted.

With dreams, whatever is in the back box is what i will dream about… if it’s also in my front box, i can control the dream; a lucid dream, where you know you know you not in reality.
Thing is, i have a lot of nightmares where i am conscious of the lack of reality, but no matter how much i shout at myself to wake up, i FEEL pain in my dream, but i can also feel my warm bed. Anyway, back to the memory topic, because they ARE related.

How’s this: i went on holiday when i was 6 years old (i am now 14) stood up on a stage, and i can now remember exactly where i was sitting, the pattern of the chairs, lighting, people, and the face, location and name of every person who got introduced on stage (children in a competition). I can remember my entry number, what i said, and how i danced. But other times, NOW i can pick something up, memorise a page, put it down for 5 minutes and completely forget where i put it. I can look at a phone number, 11 digits, and most of the time remember it after 20 seconds. But other times i can write something over and over again and it just doesn’t stick… say i’m doing a maths formula, and the teacher writes some problems on the board for homework, expecting us to memorise the formula. I can remember all of the 20 questions, but i can’t remember the actual formula.

Does anyone else have this type of memory? It scares me sometimes. Open minded people only please, no abuse because i only want advice… No i am not insane, i’m perfectly fine, and open about the paranormal ^_^
No i am not autistic, i am brilliant with people and my memory only works with certain things… And i am better at English than Maths, even though it’s very close. If that’s a point, anyway.
Well, thanks a lot, Sting Ray. If you have no opinion why the hell did you answer? Looks like an opinion to me.

potheadpenguin asked:

I’m overdue on almost all my coursework, the deadline is tomorrow and I still haven’t even started two essays. I’ve made a start on my geography coursework but still have to finish it.

My procrastination is also getting in the way of my social life, I broke up with my gf a few months ago for complicated reasons, I love her very much and when we broke up I was devistated, I hardly talked for likke two weeks and even now I’m recovering. I would like to get back together with her but I think she thinks I’m weak because of the way I treat my school work so I would really like to overcome it. I’m pretty sure I’ve also screwed around most of my friends because of it, I know for a fact that my teachers are getting pissed with me because of it and that I have to hand in the coursework (for my geography I got the deadline extended and I’m meant to email it to him so he can mark it tomorrow, it’s 1:30 in the morning now).

I’m pretty sure I’m addicted to the internet and my computer too. I guess that even writing this is delaying, to put it into perspective I managed to find the need to iron myself some pancakes two days ago because I didn’t want to do it. I don’t see why I can’t just get it finished like all my friends and then never have to worry about it again. I’m not trying to make myself seem bad so that everyone feels sorry for me and I **** my life the way it is, I get up, I go to school, I get back from school, I go on the computer, I go to bed; and it carries on going round and round. I practically live in my room and it means I don’t get to see enough of my friends, the prospect of going outside seems very hard to me at the moment, for m to go out I have to be invited and possibly persuaded to go somewhere and when I do go I find that I have fun.

I’m a reasonably bright person and managed to get myself into A level maths at 14 years old but managed to have to drop out from it because of my habits, I usually work well in school though but at home I can never get things done. Idk if this is relevant but I have a very bad sleep pattern too (it’s the holidays atm), I get up at 3 in the afternoon and go to bed at 5 in the morning. There was a point in time where I would go to bed when I got home from school, get up at nine in the evening, go on the computer then go to bed at six in the morning only to have to get up for school at eight again. I want to go to university too and I realize that the way things are going I won’t get to where I want to be so this is why I’m asking for some help, partly for my school work and partly for my friends and so I can hopefully get back with my ex. If there’s any more info you want then please ask.

Saying just do your work won’t work either, I don’t mean to be difficuilt but it’s been tried before and gotten nowhere. I also have these spur of the moment things when it’s late at night and I’m chatting to people on msn about it and it really makes me want to stop but then when I wake up the next morning the feeling is gone and I just go back to my old ways. I’ve also looked on the interent and it says I should attent life coach meeting or possibly get a coucelor, is this really necessary? Sorry for taking so much of your time to read this

breathe in for luck asked:

i’m a 17 yr old girl and i don’t fall asleep on most days until 4-5am and i wake up at about 11am. I do try to go to sleep earlier but i can’t sleep. I have tried many times to go to sleep at 1am but i find myself lying in bed restless for a few hours. The only time i can get to sleep at about 12am is when i wake up at 7am for college. On weekends and holidays like now i can’t seem to sleep…. could there be a reason for this?

Anglo Jerk asked:

Identify the UCS, UCR, CS and CR in each of these scenarios.

1. To discourage coyotes from attacking their sheep, ranchers fed the coyotes small pieces of mutton tainted with poison that, when ingested, caused the coyotes to experience extreme dizziness and nausea. Later, when the coyotes were placed in the pen with the sheep, the mere smell of the sheep caused the coyotes to run frantically away from their former prey.

2. A passenger on an airplane was feeling very nervous about an important job interview the next morning, and as a result he was uneasy and nervous throughout the flight. Back at home weeks later, he is contemplating a holiday trip. Though he hadn’t previously been afraid to fly, he finds himself suddenly nervous about flying and decided to cancel his plans to visit an out-of-state relative.

3. It’s no secret that people become unhappy when bad weather strikes, but what is surprising is that weather forecasters are consistently blamed for weather over which they obviously have no control. Weather forecasters around the country have been whacked by old ladies with umbrellas, pelted with snowballs, and even threatened with death (e.g., “You’re the one that sent that tornado and tore up my house….I’m going to take your head off,” or “If it snows over Christmas, you won’t live to see New Year’s”) by people who mistakenly infer a causal relationship between the forecaster with subsequent foul weather patterns.